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Summer of '86 Revisited - Memories of a Childhood Garden
The combination of Sally Mann’s work in Immediate Family and Duane Michels work in The House I Once Called Home were the first to trigger the ideas behind this piece of work by Kat Gollock.
Mann says, of her work, “the place is important; the time is important. It’s summer, any summer, but the place is home.” These words and her work brought to mind a particular period of my life, which became the main inspiration behind my images.
In 1986 a family with 4 children came to stay with us for the whole summer. There was 7 children running around with the type of abandon that only children in their summer holidays can have; recklessly leaving toys and games around our garden for one or other of the parents to pick up once we were asleep. These abandoned articles of play, both natural and man-made, are depicted in my images as a reminder of that summer. The deterioration of these playthings symbolising the passing of time and the growing up of the children who once played on them; lying in wait for the next generation.
The juxtaposition of Michels sense of false memory and the dereliction and decay of time was also to become one of my central themes. His work got me thinking about how true my own perception of my past was and how the search for these potentially erroneous ideals have influenced how I live my life. The abandoned playthings, now, becoming symbolic of the realisation that the memories may not be real and may never come again.
Unsurprisingly Eugene Smith’s A Walk to the Paradise Garden played a part in the development of this work. Both Michels and Smith’s using light and shadow to invoke hope and spiritual illumination. By using similar visual techniques I, too, wanted invoke that same hopeful sense of walking into the unknown.
This project has made me realise that this summer idyll has stayed with me and I have lived my life with the belief that, once I am able to feel that summer again and find myself in that garden again, I will be truly home. It explores the idea that whilst that idyll may not be true or may not even exist the feeling of it that remains within me breeds the hope that it will, one day, exist again both through me and the family I hope to have one day.
That imagined sense of home keeps me moving forward and exploring until I find what I’m looking for. There is a place that William Blake wrote about called Beulah; “a pleasant lovely shadow where no dispute can come’. It is this
contradictory make believe place that I am, perhaps trying to emulate in both these images and my life, the ‘pleasant lovely shadow’ of a summer gone by.
About Kat Gollock
Kat Gollock is an Edinburgh based photographer whose commercial work consists predominantly of portraiture, events and music photography. She also teaches photography and has been involved in several art based youth engagement and community outreach projects.
Kat's creative work has started to focus predominantly on more contemporary landscape and she often incorporates text to compliment and enhance her images. Her work is often made in response to her own experiences and the environment around her, drawing on experiences of growing up a in a rural area but, now, being hugely embedded in city culture. Kat uses her practice as a way to try and understand where she's come from and where she's going and how that fits into the world around her.